I'm Fine.

"I'm Fine".. something I say way to often. Truth is whenever I say it I feel the exact opposite. "I'm fine" really means I miss you a lot, I'm about to cry, I need a hug, I miss the way it used to be and please understand? I really need to stop doing this to myself.. but its really hard sometimes. There are little triggers that make me miss you more than anything. Like right now... I know you will probably read this at some point so just know that

I really miss you a lot.

and I'm cerainly not fine.